8th Dhul Hijjah 1431

As I sit today , in humility and awe in all that HE has given me ...on this earth ..how can I be truly thankful ? My tears would flow for days , in gratitude and/or sadness for what I have not done . I can only remember that I am an imperfect human ... needing to be forgiven for my transgressions . My soul longs for peace and mercy for my husband, family and myself . What can I do more..except praise YOU , MY RABB and believe in your promises ...you will LOVE us, protect us and care for us thru everything you give us . Let us believe in YOUR plan ...as it is better than anything my human brain may envisage . FAITH WILL TAKE US THRU ...not around or over the trials . Please be merciful to all those I have loved for you . YOU have deemed me worthy of knowing this LOVE and now I turn back to YOU...seeking only YOU . My heart is breaking for so many reasons ..that I can not comprehend or record them all here. Please forgive us and continue to watch over our path ..as we move forward in HOPE and FEAR !!!! YES I do fear YOU but my LOVE is greater than that ... please let me always hold tight to the rope of FAITH and LOVE ..above all else that I should conquer and walk thru the valley of Death with an OPEN , fearless step ..knowing that YOU will be there to meet me at the last .