EId al Adha

The FAITH of our ancestors comes back to visit us ..on such special days . WHY?? Can we simply open our hearts and minds to feel the profound connection with HIS might and power? EID can replenish our faltering footsteps , strengthen weary hearts and tired bodies as we question the challenges , we each have been given. Seek the "iron" will to carry on from HIS cauldron of gifts that He is ready to share with HIS faithful . We are giving, sacrificing , and sometimes looking for some signs of HOPE!! Here we are at a crossroads ... simply reach up and submit to FAITH .
It is such a precious gift..we are safe within and simply must recognize this. The denial is finished and we can feel the greatness within it ...

Thank you my God for such a system of LIFE that will manage our destiny with such simplicity . BE WELL my brothers and sisters ... safely cuddled in HIS gentle embrace . YOU ARE NOT ALONE!! EID MUBAREK!!!

Shawwal 1432

The creative spirit rises up in my bosom as RAmadan has finished and EID has given us such a JOY of hope, forgiveness and mercy. Dear God, everything YOU plan is for a greater purpose than just ourselves.

Let us be still long enought to hear the whisperings of our heart to guide and direct our footsteps to do HIS good. We may not battle our JIHAD on battlefileds , we may not speak in sermons , we may not be great in the world's fame BUT we can each , do a small part in praising and glorifying the small place we have been given while we are here. Let Shawwal instil in us a new beginning and find that quiet heart that will allow us to do the GOOD we were designed to do .

The LOVE, thankfulness and tender compassion I feel in my heart today for a loving RABB who has designed such a system of FAITH and LIFE is soo PROFOUND. PLease keep us centered on being our BEST every day ...allowing the minutes to pass in praise to the grand DESIGNER.

Ramadan 17 1432

My heart is so full today ...words can not express what I am feeling ... last evening was the memory of Badr Battle ...the night Allah sent thousands of angels to help the few faithful as they fought their JIHAD .
O God, As I sit I recall the soo many times when you sent your angels to support me in my JIHAD ..I am humbled by your greatness and mercy... my heart lies open to listen to Your call . Please allow me to hear YOU!
Am I worthy of this support? Please make it so ...as I journey down the path alone now ( without my beloved mate). He made me strong by needing me soo much . Now who needs me ? I need YOU , MY RABB. Please keep me strong in FAITH and forgive me for my shortcomings. I am truly nothing without YOU!!!

Let my LOVE for YOU now dominate my BEING ... giving me courage to walk in YOUR path. Please do not let go of my hand EVER!!! It is the FAITH that brought me here... let it continue please and save me from IBLIS .. who I fear from the deepest recesses of my soul .

Ramadan is a blessed ally

What can we learn from this friend?

It is all there for the asking. Dig into the recesses of your soul's need and ask for your deepest desire.
For me , as I realize the body has some physical limitations now.. I shall accept them and be truly , sincerely grateful for what I do have. I must live with the poitive and try to improve them. To my RAbb, I am nothing without YOUR guidance and support . You are as close to my heart as my jugular vein. I ask you to keep me HUMBLE, patient and ready to serve your requests. Let me please only YOU in my daily routine.
I count on YOUR total, love for me and count my many blessings every day. I trust You if only I remain open to hear Your will. Let me remain sincere to stay on Your track leading me to piety and righteousness. Teach me in simplicity to change what I need to still change , accept where I am good, and keep wise in knowing the difference.

Ramadan's three great gifts of mercy, forgiveness and freedom from Hellfire fill our days with HOPE and happy visions for the Hereafter. We love You and Praise the Sunna of the Prophet for leading us correctly. Let us stay resolute to this path .. quietly observing our every deed is done for HIM. Seek not anything that may tempt us to do wrong. Judge not that I be not judged ! Turn away from disputes ..not worthy of time and chatter.

Let me let go of ego and feel the grand love for HIM to be my primary goal .. pray, repent and remain content with what is . Thank you RAmadan for visiting us .

Shaban's close for 1432

Every day has its own beauty ..let us have the eyes to see ! Whatever is presented is a signpost to the future. If only we can remember what the lesson was! As we are all searching for the key to the Truth , we fumble sometimes with the keys we have used before ... now if only we can remember the KEY is HIS ways. We keep fumbling around, seeking new paths , asking for new answers ...when the answer remains always the same . Seek TRUTH from HIM ..asking the simple answer.

Now we have prepared ourselves to repent during Ramadan ... help us to have the strength to do Your will in our days . Loving You is more important than any other challenge we have .. ul hum do lillahe rabil alamine.

shaban 15

YA BARAKATAHU YA ASTAKISO YA HAYOU YA QUYOOM

This is my prayer for safety and good health for all I know ... none of us know how many days remain for us on this earth . May we remain steadfast and pleasing HIM as Shaban moves us forward . As this month is preparing us for our Ramadan , we can only HOPE to repent and bring ourselves more inline to whatever our Kismet will bring us . We pray for courage, wisdom and a gentle composure ... as we count our blessings each minute .
The will we use to carry on should be one that discerns constancy of purpose and patient gratitude. FAITH ..deepening and growing must always overcome anxiety and fear . ONLY FEAR of HIM is appropriate so that HE may bestow HIS grace upon each of us .
SO BE IT NOW as you will . AMIN SUB AMIN

Shaban 1432

Shukur ul hum do lillaheh... the new month has brought a peace and brotherly love .. designed to give repose and relieve my pain. I thank my Almighty Creator for HIS mercy . Let HIS will be our daily guidance ..always to keep adroit and not to fail HIM .
I trust in HIs earthly designs for us all.. even as we may be humbled by life's events ..let us know the good that comes from some tribulations.

May Shaban prepare our minds and bodies to surrender easily to Ramadan and seek the good that may come from that beauty of sacrifice. I love the regime and path of sunna of Mohammed ... and the IMAN Islam has given me. Let my faith deepen continuously and allow me that strength to serve as the trials come before my path. My love goes before me to give before I receive and accept what comes afterward with a happy heart. Please keep me on this RIGHT PAth ... AMIN sub AMIN>!

RAJAB 17 1432

OM MY RABB ... our hearts are full with Your mercy ...given profusely throughout our lives ... do we ever stop to be truly aware and remember this... remember YOUT grace ..freely bestowed on us ...as needed. The nafl prayers to be prayed this month are just a drop in the bucket of shukur for YOUR gifts . Whenever some thing is lost to we, earthly brings... some thing soo much more is gained for the Hereafter . Our family has witnessed Your power a few weeks ago ..in taking a beloved one of ours ...as he was ready to depart . He is now back in Your abode... I give you Thanks and ask that you cherish him there as I have cherished him here . Keep him safe and forgive him his transgressions please... examining instead the good that he did intend to do on this earth .
I ask for your extended gift of patience to me as I am accepting his " going" ...fill my heart with a peace and knowledge of waht your will is now for me . Help me balance my days in healthy ways ..supporting those in need and maintaining myself with wisdom and productive pursuits . AMIN SUB AMIN .

Rajab 4 1432

My soul is just now accepting my husband's passing , in complete faith that we are still ONE . Rajab will bring its own deepening of solace as we search for forgiveness and sacrifice ourselves with the desire to please our Maker. His will is what will bring us to the ultimate peace and so , when we accept HIS will daily , we will have that peace even now. I will continue to strive , this month with nafl ( volontary prayers) and increased giving to let the LIGHT come thru me and show HIS grandeur thru me . Seeking HIS pleasure will give me great satisfaction ..and perhaps let my purpose here be more meaningful. What else do I have, except my belief?
Let us die one day with these words on our lips ...ISA . Support us all and bring us always closer to YOU!!!

Jumada II 1432

We are now halfway thru this month since my beloved has passed on into eternity . What do I feel ...this is not significant as these feelings will change constantly . What matters is what I KNOW!!!! Let your heart be not troubled ..the Prophets have said . WHY? The knowledge is so deeply imbedded in my soul ... there is a life hereafter and he waits for me there. It took only 1 second some 43 years agoo for me to recognize this beloved soul mate .. so I KNOW that he waits for me when my time will come . In the meantime, I MUST move on and share the LIGHT with as many as I can. It is this sharing that is my earthly calling NOW. I KNOW that THIS IS SO ..in my depth of my being .

My simple , humble prayer is that I will succeed in doing YOUR will as I tread this path forward . Guide my footsteps and keep me safe until I too join the eternal LIGHT . AMIN sub amin .

JUmada II 1432

My utter loss is only Allah's eternal gain . MY beloved " majazzi khuda " on this earth went to meet his maker last month and seek only to sincerely know that he is safe in the arms of the angels . His earthly body was tired out and could not manage here anymore. So in HIS wisdom and mercy, Allah sent the angel of death for him one evening and took his soul ...back to whence he came .

The longing and missing will never end for me , his wife of some 42 years and 10 months. There was never a man who could compete for my affections ...this is an eternal bond given us by Allah . ... forever missed , forever loved.

rabiul awal 1 1432

I have not been able to write here for a few... HIS grace has kept us afloat thru many days of constant seeking . Pondering over the miracles makes me evermore grateful for them . What do I feel , from recollecting the Prophet's birth date , the 12th of this month? Humility before his stories, wonder at the courage he showed , awe of the faith he inspires... we are told to never revere anyone other than Allah.. but this man's memory brings me an ultimate love.

As I lead my own life , trying to do good ... I realize how insignificant my sacrifices are; how untimely my fears and anxieties appear before his trials ; how little my faith is ; how empty my soul must feel . So I then reaffirm my desire to try harder , to love better, to fear less, to hope deeper, to support more and to BELIEVE only that the hereafter is our final destination . Let us keep that candle shining brightly ..waiting for us at the finish line . AMIN .. thank you Prophet Mohammed ( PBUH)

23rd Safar

Understanding one's life is a challenge that we all must bear
Meditating , reflecting and remembering lessons learned
IS most significant for our personal growth
We all have mixed resources available to us in seeking our own way
Let us choose , with wisdom what suits our own growth .
For me, Safar has always meant extreme trials mixed with utter Grace . As we now face the last week of this test , please remember with me, to always visit the mountain top , look down and be serene in your glancing . It could have been much harder , without the FAITH that we have been given . Let us cherish that Faith and see how its light has brought us thru the storms . My tears flow with thanks as I bless that FAITH ... honor it , hold tight and fight the good fight ..facing all obstacles by enduring what is ...with the greatest HOPE of what will BE !

Safar commences 1432

As 1432 officially starts with the month of Saffar , we can only hope that Allah will send HIS grace on enough of us ..to actually make a difference in the world today. My words , although deeply felt can only be meaningful when lived by . As I re-examine other years , I am saddened to know what littel effect words have upon us . Even , we , of faith become disheartened so easily . The Prophet's example is the only one ...along with the former Prophet's lives who have born their trials ..so nobly . We , lesser humans doubt, feel lost and despair ..with so little stimulation. I am first to admit my weakness.

My prayer for 1432 NOW is that more of us can remain resolute in the faith that will will lead us thru temptations ...no matter how great and will keep Shaitan . at bay without the powers that HE yields over us ..so maliciously. Remember the road to Hell is adorned,illuminated with glitter while our path to Heaven is covered with thorns and pain... DO NOT EVER DESPAIR!!! You are safe in HIM !!!! AMIN sub Amin .