Shaban 8 1439

For those who may read and for myself , I dedicate this post to gratitude for TODAY and what learning it may bring to each one of us .

Seeking the light is a daily effort and can be pursued in many ways .  It may be a spiritual quest done alone or with a source of knowledge external to us. What  matters is the aim to grow in sincerity closer to what we each can be .  Stress is a major destructive force in this climb so I ask that you consciously destress your days and mind however you can . Collective consciousness can only be accomplished when we each try our best to find our lights .

Shaban is a month to seek forgiveness ,  alms giving , voluntary nafl penance , visiting the sick , seek mercy and rely on the Prophet for his guidance TODAY. Let the Quran guide your heart always and give you Balance . It is this faith that will carry you over the darkness as it appears in your days . It is the space beyond where I am that is my real LIFE , HOPE . I can only march forwards on that PAth . It will be the TOTAL SURRENDER that will one day save you from the darkness .. be aware !!!
The JIHAD is never ceasing ... reach up to find your essence.

Remember those deceased now who have led you on the path with love, compassion and sincerity .

YA SHAFI to those who need HIS healing mercy ! Make your devotions sincere !!!!! Let me bask in my love for the Creator !!!!!In prayer we only lose anger, ego, greed , depression, insecurity, fear of Death.

Amin sub amin .

Shaban 6 ,1439

As I re-read my post from last November 2017 ..before winter really set in , I am struck by my resilience over this past 5 months . Not that I followed my own advice every day , I am so grateful for the grace and mercy that carried me thru these days .  I can see  my duas being answered ...in spite of the challenges I faced.  MY OH MY , here is a miracle right before my eyes ( in written words ) .

This is what I constantly seek ---- the signs of Allah's involvement in my daily life .

Now again I am mentally preparing for Ramadan soon to commence . I have intrepidation every year examining myself in midst of examining how I have behaved. I can see from my blogs how my intent  falls to me BUT I also see how behaviour may slip up . Then I watch the mercy and grace that MY Creator allows HIS forgiveness to correct me . This returns my humility and a deeper understanding of who I truly am and how I live my days .

Seeking knowledge is what our lives encompass .  I now simply ask , " Please help me open my eyes and turn to YOU daily for sincere guidance ."  I do know that only YOU can know what is RIGHT for each of us . Thank you for Your plans .

I KNOW THIS ... I trust and love my Creator as I watch all the cycles of life being renewed in the springtime . I seek constant REFUGE in HIM as I see my own personal strengths weakening as I age . Now is my time for permanent reflection on ME and HOPE to remain acceptable as a  " wali " to MY RABB . Let me please HIM as I meander now on the path to the Hereafter.