21 Jumada II 1440

My Dear RAbb As read over my posting from Jumada ! , I can truly view my state of anguish over many issues . I had directed myself to make more duas in order to receive comfort . The coldness in the outer world has frozen my limbs and mind in so many ways . YET I have sought a warm heart and HIS LIGHT to emanate from within me . I had made decisions to protect my daily life , yet I was questionning my withdrawing from the " dunya". In my search I began to see that this aging process does create an isolation of the body from exterior difficult challenges . So I chose to replace my outer work in order to do inner work in preparation for purifying the SELF for HIM. For it is only when we take time ponder and truly contemplate , do we see our errors . For it with this vision , we may be able to correct ourselves . For it is with this cleansing , then we will be ready to meet our Creator for the final Hereafter. I can easily examine that this hibernation time will clearly benefit me in future . THe trick will be to remember the lessons and make changes in tune with what we have learned. Now my duas will continue to seek change for my benefit . This internal JIHAD comes to all of us, believers on the path back to HIM.